For the lack of an elegant introduction, I will just get straight to the point. In my last post, I wrote about the physicality of undergoing a second puberty, today I want to tell you about a few things that I forgot last time and moreover about the “emotional side of things”. But let’s get…
Kategorie: The Trans
The physicalities of transitioning
Every now and then there are life situations or circumstances where I find it very difficult to imagine that the average given there is actually the real average. The table in the information brochure on hormone replacement therapy for trans people is one of these situations. According to many, the first physical changes caused by…
(Never) lose yourself
Somewhere between two small towns (and a lot of more villages), my brain slowly began to realise what I had experienced that morning. It started with packing my bag, driving to the main station and from there my reality enfolded itself into a two-hour nightmare of cancelled or delayed and overcrowded trains, discussions with taxi…
Artsy thoughts about medical referrals – In musing mood
„Please bring a referral letter“, „Do you know if you need a referral?“ and my favourite: „Don’t forget your ‘Ü-Schein!’ (which is a hilarious sounding abbreviation for the German translation). I almost felt like a young boy who was desperately waiting for an owl to save him from the dark closet under the staircase… Four…
I am (not) made out of names
“What’s in a name? That which we call a rose by any other name would smell as sweet […]”, Juliet asked Romeo, who was standing under her window answering “Call me but love, and I’ll be new baptized; Henceforth I never will be Romeo. […]” I rolled my eyes, sighed, folded my script and made…
The „vicious“ genders of diaries
As a maybe-future historian, I regularly find myself in the predicament of having a promising thought but lacking historical sources. And without sources: no thesis, no term paper, no essay… it was frustrating. It got more frustrating if I thought about the following: Depending on your research question everything can be a source. Historical science…
Therapy: round and round and round it goes
I thought long and hard about writing this post and then even longer about publishing it, simply because I don’t want the narrative of „suffering“ trans people to be exploited even more. More than that, I could never imagine that I would ever have anything to contribute to the topic. Neither would I classify my…
Dysphoria has changed?
I don’t know exactly when it happened, but sometime this year my dysphoria changed. The desire for physical change multiplied many times over. Why? I don’t know. Maybe it was July, when I traded my decades-long asexuality for a demisexuality and discovered my libido. Or maybe it was the day all my friends partied at…
„When did you know?!“
„When did you realise that you were trans?“ is a question that I personally haven’t been asked very often, but it’s one that the media likes to throw around every now and then. On the one hand, I can understand the curiosity of cis-people, on the other hand, I have always had to sigh when…